Friends! Friends. Friends?

Friends! Friends. Friends?
What kind are you? Hard to tell, isn't it.
They say you can't have enough friends... sure you can. If the other option  is to have to TRY to make new ones and go through a bunch of crap and fake mess... I'll just keep the ones I've got. They love me, they deal with me, they are worth me saying I'm sorry too, and they worth me forgiving. I mean seriously WHY do I need more?
One thing I found this year - midst all the stress and aggravation this year brought to me - there were some people who were attempting to come into my life - as friends, lovers, frienemies, brothers, sisters and all all others... and it took me a minute before I realized they were just LOOKING for friends and not willing to be friends themselves... I ain't got TIME FA THAT!
I started out this year with 343 friends on FB and now I have 355... and I think that's mostly due to finding some relatives that wanted to 'keep in touch'.
My dear sistergirl used to always tell me - don't give them the power. She would ask me, WHY do you value what these people say so much...? I wasn't ready to hear all that I guess... until now.
She's right...
I have done so much this year only to end up with a life full of VIRTUAL relationships again... remember when that was a big deal. It was like Michelle get out of your house... Michelle go meet some REAL people... and what... look... I'm still talking to people online and even funnier... some of my CLOSEST friends are not at arms reach and I talk to THEM online now too! So even those I saw in person I don't SEE anymore... heck I'm more virtual NOW that I have a job and I leave my house everyday than I've EVER been...
It's okay. More donuts for me...
But seriously - I get out of my house a lot more than I used to and I'm taking care of business and health and all that... but I feel as though I'm invisible as I walk the streets... I think that's why when I catch someone's eye I'm so taken with them... it's like "You see me?"
That's when I realize I'm not alone - no, not at all. There are a million bagillion people who are 'by themselves' but not alone.
There isn't a DAY I don't talk to someone... a real person. That didn't happen in the past.
I lost my voice last week due to a head cold and didn't realize I couldn't speak until I got to work... I realize I hadn't said anything out loud. There was a time when talking to myself was all I did.
What am I blogging about - I don't know, but does it matter? What better do you have to do right now than read this? And if you've gotten this far... apparently nothing. You're probably a friend or someone who has been wondering if I'm 'worth' your friendship - hard to tell, isn't it.